Unlike any agreement written with time
Ours had no time frame but had infinite ends
Unlike any lawyer in suit and tie
Ours was a God, in charge of earth and sky
Documentation was on the tablets of our hearts
With clauses even we weren’t sure about
Twelve minus one
Does it matter?
Except to the God who created matter
To the one who makes things beautiful in his time
He gave me someone that would love me till the end of time
Does it count?
Not like pennies or change in my account
But to you who loved me without discount
I say I love you even as our relationship dismounts
As you hold me in my despair
I’m so afraid I would disappear
These memories may form the foundation for my life
Or may cause me to derail out of my mind
Should we stay?
Should we go?
It no longer matters
Even when I found your heart my home
And your ring my goal
You still deny me this consolation prize
Instead of vulnerability, you chose a disguise
Hope your happy, ten over ten
Equals one end and a temporary when
That in all my calculations of time
You might move on forgetting why
Why I existed to fill you with joy
Why you fell in love with me but chose to raise a family
You might live in the reality of time
But our real estate doesn’t exist in your mind
Where things burn up, move on and change
But in two hearts hell bent on making a way
Twelve minus one again?
Yes it may not matter
But our love making I hope would generate more matter
For you to know I don’t just want you happy
Even if you broke our agreement and called our lawyer
I’d like to think you did it was for my good
All I have are my tears as food.
As your death is foretold upon my happiness
This is goodbye, I’d rather I die daily than wear a black dress
Even if this body isn’t the form I hoped it would be
Telling myself you don’t exist is my new Calvary.